Yesterday I experienced every Speaker’s nightmare… I died on stage.
Not just at any event either, in front of an audience of 1700 at the TEDxSalford event at The Lowry Theatre in Salford, as well as goodness knows how many more via the global livestream!
This should not happen to me, I’ve delivered over 300 talks, I should know better.
I could feel 5 minutes in I was not connecting with the audience; there was no energy build in the room; I felt myself switching from passion for the material into fear of looking stupid. And as a result, ‘energetically collapsed’.
There was much horrible criticism via the TedxSalford Twitter timeline when I looked later (the modern way of crucifying someone) and instead of sticking around for the rest of the morning I decided just to ‘leave the building’ and get back to the safety of my home! I experienced that ‘small space’ of fear, failure, humiliation.
Yet in every experience there are ALWAYS learnings. Here was mine…
I have become spoiled in that most of my audiences are rarified (people typically pay to see ME) and so I attract people who totally ‘get’ the power of Higher Consciousness. When you are playing to a ‘home crowd’ in this way, you can use the power of the audience’s energy and love to feed and empower your presentation. The audience at TEDx is much more mainstream, many were University students who have gone through the ‘3rd dimensional training’ of filtering everything through logic and reason (and thus many default to cynicism/resentment/mockery at the mention magic, energy and ‘God’).
What is clear is that I (and other lightworkers like me, many of whom are assembling as part of my latest business project www.source.tv ), need to find a way to enable the masses to ‘get’ the power of the Fourth Dimension. To make it palatable, and to get it past the filters of ‘woo woo’ hippy shit.
“Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic”
Arthur C. Clarke, “Profiles of The Future”, 1961 (Clarke’s third law)
For it is this move from cynicism and criticism to tolerance and respect; a move to the higher vibration of pure unconditional love, that is essential for us to achieve transformation upon our Planet.
This was the gift from Spirit hidden in the humiliation of the public meltdown experience of this talk.
I’ve recorded the original speech + PPT in this video – in it’s entirety (I knew when I was on stage that delivering the central chunk about channelling from light beings would have been speaker suicide at TEDx and so spontaneously decided to cut it !) – if you would like to listen to it and form your own opinion:
All feedback is hugely welcome.
With love and in gratitude,
PS My business partner Kevin Stein (mentioned in the talk and in the video above) – who is also a horary astrologer – pointed out that the timing of my speech was peculiar in that Mercury was standing still in the heavens on the day it was moving from Retrograde back into Direct motion. Perfect symbolism when you think about it, given that Mercury is the planet of communication and the speech was all about accessing Divine Guidance through stillness. Clearly there was powerful communication happening yesterday, quite apart from what was or was not said on stage.